I invite you to sit in meditation today. Just for a few minutes or maybe just be mindful here....now....while you read this.
Draw your attention to awareness. Be here with me as I write this. Be here as you read it.......
Allow your presence to settle. Allow your energy to rest a bit. Allow a calmness to radiate a bit more from your being... feel it settle into and over you. Allow it to fall softly from your head to your heart. Feel it fill and hold you.
Engage with me, with my energy, with my presence, with my writing. Be present to this moment here now as I am there with you.
Just be here. Let go of any idea that the next moment should offer. Let go of the expectation of what this writing should be... There is nothing to do. If there is nothing to do, then there is nothing to do right and nothing to do wrong. Just allow yourself to be here now.
Now, mindfully, back up. Move back to that which is looking. See that you can do this. Move your attention "back" a. It in your perspective to "look" from further back. Back-up behind the thoughts. See them. Be aware of them. Continue to back up through observance of thought, through awareness of it. Let go a bit, try to surrender, back up more. Be. Be aware.
You may start to get the connected sense that you cannot back up fast enough, like you have to race backwards to stay in-front of thought. Race backwards and yet you still see you are not behind these thoughts, back up still and let go of that thought as well. Let go of expectations or wanting the next moment to be something. Back up, surrender and let go of this, of these things.
Race backwards, get behind thought until you stop racing and there is nothing to stand on, nothing to hold onto any longer. Race back in front of thought until there is nothing and everything is lost.
Let go here.
FEEL yourself let go and just fall....surrender....
Surrender to this endless fall to nothing and even then, let go of that thought.
Let go of this, of all of this.
Surrender to the endless fall of surrender.
Feel the peace here. Feel the silence. There is nothing to catch you here because this fall of surrender never ends.
Let this happen for you, not from you.
I invite you to engage life from here. From here, direct the desire of the universe. Create with an authenticity from the heart.
Obvious things are so obvious, right, I mean sound....WTF?!?! So in your face (or would that be, your ears). Objects....I see you....I get it....you're there, a thing and all with light reflecting off you...noticed!!!
And for my healers out there, 'sup dog?? what we do...makin' a liv'n.....What we do is how we make our difference, right. Healing (my job) is my gift.
Well, back to the obvious. Objects can't occur without space. Sound can't be noticed without silence. So which is more important. The space? The object? The sound? The silence? They are not seperate you see. The are different measures of the same thing. One is easy to see, one isn't. One is looked over or not heard, one isn't.
Realize, the job can't occur without the life around the job occurring. So which is more important, the expression of the job or the expression of life around the job? Its just like sound and silence, objects and space...'job time" or "not job time". They are all the same, one giant expression of the same thing. Mooji points to this when he says "there is nothing to do, but the mind says, 'i need a job'". Living your life is it. That is all there is to do. Don't feel the minds pressure to "have to do more". Align to your spirit and work from there and witness "the job" that makes the living and the "job" of life around the living are the same job with the same importance because they are aligned to, and part of, your soul.
There is no need to dissect and compartmentalize one part of our life as better. No need to fall into the trap of needing to be busier to be making a difference. Everything we do is at all times literally an aspect of the same thing, an expression of awareness, of divinity, at all times every time. Let your heart rest here. Make your living. Live. Be.
May you be blessed to experience the peace in knowing that "You" are the great expression of healing, always. Never sell yourself short at any time, ever. May you be blessed to align and live from this place, always.
Notice judgement. In my experience, I see it arises from knowing. Knowing gives rise to judgement in that an egoic "l" solidifies and two things emerge, me and the other. Trace back the different examples that give way to judgement within your experience. Notice the projection of judgement of others is a reflection of judgement for self.. Through projection we may judge others contributions or impact in society as greater or less than ours and in reverse, ours as less than or more than others. Judgement occurs in the space of dualism.
As a single organism of a body, what is more important to the human body's survival? Eating? Breathing? Drinking? White blood cells? Red blood cells? Your skin? Your heart? All are needed for the overall long term survival of the organism. It is a single unit and it is through its dance of singularity, of what appear to be separateness within the whole, that survival occurs.
What is more important, hugging of my daughter, your breath, that grain truck delivering rice in Africa, the trees, water, that little chipmunk in your backyard, the air? There is no singularity within this experience we call reality, although it appears there is. When the breath is seen as more important as the blood, then the body falls out of harmony. This is how cancer and illness start. When our experience, when every experience with the entire experience is seen as the single entire cosmic experience, viscerally, then a blessing of grace will have been bestowed.
In my experience judgement is a projection that can only arise if there is a belief that there is something outside of "you", which means a belief that "this" you exists separately, not simply within singularly of awareness as the cosmic whole; an identity-less, identity in the cosmic experience. All parts always are just as significant and impactfull. All are one ultimate experience.
May you be blessed with the gift of grace to know and feel this throughout your entire beingness.
Brahman exists without second. This is the second of the 7 great utterances. I invite you to find time to sit with this sentence. I invite you to find time to be open to its suggestion of what is occurring in this reality. I invite you to explore your own experience through a deep questioning on whether this sentence is true in your direct experience. Do you see this as true, viscerally, in the body, not the mind? As you begin to slow or quiet the mind, as you begin to connect and fully rest in awareness, see what inner truth is provided to you about your experience of this wonderful sentence. It is in this silence, in this inner laboratory of contemplation, nestled in a heart felt desire to know the truth, that the truth will be revealed.
I have sat with the 7 utterances for roughly 2 years. This particular one, and the 4th one tvat tvam asi (I am that or that I am) really resonate with my inner satguru. Within the last few months my experience has shifted allowing me to more naturally "see" through a felt sense of both connectedness and knowing the truth behind this sentence. The sentence is taking on a lesson of its own, showing reality as it is occurring and how it is occurring. This was my experience with my post on Divine Expressiveness. This was my experience with my friends watching a movie the other night. This was my experience walking the dog this morning. Singularity of of the fabric in which all exists and is manifested from.
As you explore your reality, as you explore this sentence, I want to provide you with an additional pointer. Become aware of that which is not there. Become aware of the space between objects. Become aware of the silence and stillness that surrounds the sounds you are hearing. See how sound manifests from and falls back so naturally to silence. Become aware of the void of silence and stillness that surrounds that which is outside of what you see and hear.
In our day-to-day lives it is easy to pay attention (or daydream from) that which we hear, see and feel in our lives. I invite you with this pointer to become aware of the space between the things being seen, find what rests outside of what is being seen and being heard. You may find there is more silence and stillness occurring within your experience, than there is commotion and movement. If you are blessed to see that, to sense it, maybe you will too will see or feel Ekam Evadvitiyam Brahma.
It is all divinity. Bless you.
May you be blessed to find the silence and stillness that washes over you in every instant of your day.
Last evening I stood at the base of a 80' Pin Oak, my feet clad in stockings resting on the enormous bark covered roots extending into the earth at the base of its trunk. I stretched my head back almost painfully far and allowed my eyes to scan up its trunk, out its large branches to its smallest twigs, thousands of them, stretching out into backlit, moon filled sky above. Every cell of this tree stretched against the bark in balancing act so perfect that if any more effort were exerted the tree would explode and if any less effort were exerted the tree would collapse on itself. Everything it had was reaching to the sky. Everything it had was grounded in the earth. It gave everything it could to just being in completely alive, exposed in all of its vulnerability to anything and everything that might come its way. This tree was simply showing me its enormous will to live.
I was in awe. As I glanced down the trunk to the grass, to the bushes in the back yard, to the flowers in the case, I saw they all stretched, in complete vulnerability, with their own will to live. Then I realized something I had been missing for 49 years, this was not a collection of things with individualized wills to live, this was a shared will to live, it was actually the collective divine expression that I was seeing and sensing. Everything is sharing this as everything is divinity expressed in its fullest most beautiful form. I realized everything my eyes landed upon displayed this will, this divine expressiveness right there in the open, me included. I had this in common with everything I saw, always.
The lack of a will to live, the lack of a want to carry on this divine expressivenesss, the lack of being out there and completely vulnerable only occurres because of suffering created within the human mind and ego. Outside of the mind the nature order is this divine expression, this perfectly balanced will to live in complete vulnerability. I realized that when I find the courage to align to this vulnerability my life flows and it flows because I am simply aligned to the natural order of things.
My life, whether I know it or believe it or not, is always being expressed in its most beautiful expression but what I realize now is I can step out of the way a bit more, find the courage to be completely vulnerable and trusting, align to my highest self and make my expression the most divine aligned expression I can make it and I can look to nature to remind me at every instant, how and why this should be.
EVERYTHING you see is literally the universes expressed will to live, the fulllest expression of divinity. Take a second to look around and feel that.
Ekam Evadvitiyam Brahma (Brahman (God) exists without second).
May you be blessed to witness this, blessed to experience this in the most profound and transformational way today. Bless you.
Rest into that which you are and find everything.
Stop doing anyhing for a few minutes each day and work to rest into your truest self. Find that which has always been.
You are a healer of you and your belief is your gateway. But, you must be a believer first.
Your belief in Christ, Buddha, Allah, Krishna. If they spoke to you now, it would be you that healed you, not them. If healing occurred it would would occur through your heartfelt belief in them; your heartfelt belief in their words. Realize though this is you. The healing rests in you and the gateway is belief.
That which is seeing this, that which is reading it....it is the same as that which is writing it.
From where I arise, you arise too.
From where Christ and Buddha and Krishna and Allah....from where they arise, we arise too.
In the end. We are no different.
Be a believer. Be a believer of you. Simply be you. Be your truest most authentic you. Find the courage to do that and in so doing others will heal simply through witnessing you; simply through their belief in you.
And a wonderful side affect is that through "being you" you will "find You".
Bless you. May you be blessed with the wisdom and courage to be your most authentic self. Glimpse this and glimpse eternity.
When I saw this picture, I saw time and space fall away from presence. At this moment I distinctly remember peace, I remember I was present with my children in their kayaks. They may or may not have known. Looking back on this and feeling the energy there, I see I was offering them the most precious part of the human experience I have, my presence. My time and fullest attention. I was listening with every cell of my being, I was listening to feeling, I was listening to sound. I was fully aware and present.
Presence has arrived in my life, profoundly. Sometimes life demands it from you. I clearly see how many things distract me from being present. I transformatively (new word) see how my presence is my greatest offering. Presence is my gift to give, for with my presence comes love, compassion and empathy. That is who I am. Regardless of distance. Regardless of time. Regardless of where someones soul may reside now, presence from the deepest part of me, is my greatest gift, and not just to others, but to myself. Making time; making changes to find time; praying to be blessed with time and patience to be present with yourself, and therefor with God, is your greatest gift to give.
May you be blessed to realize this. May you be blessed to feel the overwhelming gratitude and joy that comes with the realization of the blessings that are present in your life in every waking moment."
I humbly see the healing that occurs for me and for others, simply by being me. I want to strengthen my ability to be me, to be present.
I have learned that if I ask for my hearts desire. Then Be. I will be Blessed.
On behalf of all beings, all souls I ever encounter, may I be blessed with the grace of presence.
May you also realize I am present with you right now as you read this. And you with me. Thank you for this blessing. May you realize the gift of those that are present in your life, in your heart. This is their gift to us. Their greatest gift.
A prayer to start. May I be blessed to uncover my divine potential. Blessed to find, share and fully embody the divine aspects of my truest self.
As I write I am aware I am swimming in an ocean of air. An ocean I cannot see, touch, feel, taste or smell. At first I may think I can see or feel air, but what i see and feel are what air carries in it (mosture, dust) or what air does (makes me warm, cold, moves trees, blows my hair). I know air is there I have been taught the concept of air and because my five sense let me know air is there.
As I write this I realize as well that I am immersed in divinity. I realize this because I have experienced it and through this experience I realize I have been immersed in divinity so long, with no other experience other than being immersed in divinity, that I find myself looking right past it, right through it, just like air. Simply forgetting about it being right there in front of me. I have looked past divinity for lifetimes.
Air moving and air not moving reminds me there is air present. But with divinity, there is never not divinity. There is just always divinity. No contrast. The fact that there is no contrast from divinity leaves it up to me to be conscious and grateful for the divinity that is always in my life. I have been blessed with the grace of experiencing the divinity around me, through me. Graced to see I embody divinity through mind, body and spirit.
Once I realized this; once I sat with it, once I stopped the chaos in my life and spent my time being it, contemplating it, exploring it, I realize just how much divinity too, impacts your 5 senses. All I feel, see, taste, smell and hear is divine.
You and I are the same.
Who is reading this, is divine spirit.
I ask you today.....at this time.....to stop.....rest a moment.....take time to allow yourself to believe in your divine nature. Sit with yourself a moment and see if you can make finding this, knowing this, the most important thing in your life; on behalf of everyone you have every been. Stop the lifetimes of suffering....now. Here.
Find your truest self then help others find theirs. Show your children, your brothers and sisters, strangers you meet. Make every interaction an interaction from your truest divine nature. Don't look past what you are.
Make today the day you fully embody the divine inspiration that you are.
This weekend I found a “move” that makes it easier to more fully find, and rest in awareness. The move is the move to allow. Based on my observations so far, "allowing" could be synonymous with “awareness”. I say this because I know through direct experience that resting in awareness includes allowing, and I also know that allowing, in its truest sense, enables you to rest in awareness. One thing I want to share as well is allowing does not mean condone. It does not mean accept. It does not mean enable. It simply means, allow. Allow, rest in awareness, and respond. It helps eliminate the action of reaction. Respond rather than react. Allowing is a moveless move of peace. A moveless move of being.
This lesson on allowing was shared with me this past weekend by Anandamali. In case you don’t know, Anandamali is a spiritual teacher who is originally from Serbia (I would encourage you to check out his website and investigate whether his teachings resonate with you). He travels to KC a few times a year. Once Anandamali identified for us the “action” of allowing, its significance became very clear to me. Just after he mentioned it I saw that “allowing” was energetic move he was making to hold the space of Satsang. Through resting in awareness, through “allowing”, Anandamali held the sacred space of Satsang for us. “Allowing”, allowed anything that needed to be, to be, just as awareness does.
I was humbled to see and witness this from this wonderful teacher. It took me a day and a half to see him holding the space this way and upon doing so, it helped me to more fully and more easily embody resting in awareness. Anandamali shared beautiful insights and Shakti with us this weekend. Through his and our presence we brought forth learnings that will ripple into the universe just like the universe planned to do.
May you blessed with the courage, wisdom and humility, with the compassion to allow. May you be blessed with the grace to be, to simply rest as you are. May you be blessed to glimpse, feel and know your truest, highest self.
May we all be blessed with mercy. This is my blessing to all. Personally, it is one of the most powerful blessings I have ever witnessed, for when I found this for self, a transformational change occurred for me. True love of self.
The lesson behind "mercy" started with my friend Pauly, whom we refer to as "the Pauly Lama". I can't recall what we were speaking of specifically but I remember him telling me "you know, you can say you are sorry, you can apologize or you can say, have mercy on me".
This was very profound to me. Profound because the move to "ask", to have mercy, merged seamlessly into my learnings regarding asking (why ask, how to ask). Asking for mercy embodies humility. It embodies surrender. In inherently acknowledges accountability while extending an offering to step into a space of compassion. Through asking for mercy, you provide someone the opportunity to be compassionate!
Asking for mercy takes a wrecking ball to the wall of "wrongness" built around you because of what you have done, did or said. The wall of "wrongness" or the wall of being "wrong" provides someone something to push against. If you ask for mercy the wall disappears due to humility, accountability and compassion.
Say "I am sorry! Have mercy on me!" and they literally have nothing to push against, unless they then create a new wall of non-compassion themselves.
Three days after my talk with Pauly, 2 days after my realization of the significance of "asking" and providing someone an opportunity to be compassionate, I was in a meeting with someone close who was very mad at me for something I had done. They were very mad and were obviously feeling their feelings fully, as they shared with me my error and how it affected them. In my heart I knew my intent at the time was never to hurt them, never to cause anger nor disrupt any part of their life but, in error, my actions did just this.
When they were finished speaking to me I looked them in the eyes and from my heart I said; "I can say I am sorry, I can apologize or I can say have mercy on me. I am sorry.....so sorry.....please, have mercy on me."
The wall came down. The found compassion for me. My lesson, as always had divine timing.
The one final thing I will share here is, you can have mercy on others too, with or without them asking. It is up to you to find that sort of compassion in your heart. A good place to start to manifest this level of compassion, as always with any learning, is to first turn to self. Raise the platform from which you view the world. Have mercy on yourself. Look in the mirror. Feel, fully, what you are mad at yourself for. Look deeply and from your heart, with everything you have, give yourself the blessing, the grace of mercy.
Bless you. May we all be blessed with mercy, for ourselves and others. May the decisions we need to make be clear and easy to make. May we be blessed to realize all we need we have, if we look close enough.