I purchased a rudraksha mala at the Laxmi Road market in Pune, India in the fall of 2015. A year earlier I was blessed with one from Nepal, given as a gift, a blessing from a dear friend. I wore the one I was gifted regularly. The one I purchased needed restrung to fit me. I gave this new one to my dear friend Guru, who said he could have it restrung for me before I left India. I was running out of time and he had a market near him. I agreed and waited to see what design he decided to give me. He surprised me a few days later with this orange beaded mala. It overwhelmed me. It felt to strong for me. He didn't know this. I didn't wear it.
On that same trip, on my last day, someone I had never met, never been introduced to, walked up to me and gave me this sandalwood carved Guatama Buddha. I was again overwhelmed. Overwhelemed by Vamsi's generosity.
Since vipassana, there is simply integration and adjusting. Movement through life with new knowing. Movement through life with renewed embodiment gained through experience and belief. I am blessed as the Yogi teacher and that is needed to be known is within me. I embody this now, I remind myself now through the wearing of the mala Guru provided me. It fits. It is me. I also realize that I embody a very strong Buddha nature. We all do. As I have been integrating this and seeing the true belief flower I am overwhelmed. As I sat in silence today this is what I found.
I am overwhelmed today. Overwhelmed as I continue to find time to sit and integrate my life now, post Vipassana, post awake.
How can this amount of compassion and love fill me? How can I hold the love and compassion of the entire cosmos within me and yet still feel as though I contain only the vapor, the steam of a single drop? How can I feel empty yet full?
How can what holds the entire cosmos together in its dance of synchronicity ease, fill me? With all of this in me how can I feel light? My heart...my insides....my being feels that floating feeling I feel when I glance into the eyes of my soul.
I feel an emptiness that has room for everything to be, yet I am filled with love and compassion I simply cannot describe.
Embody what you believe.
May you too, be blessed with love, with compassion.......with ease.....